Thursday, January 19, 2012

Me Time Take 2

So what is exactly is this "me time" thing? I have heard it's rewarding, it will help me to recharge my batteries and that I NEED this.

Apparently, "me time" must be focused on me...not shopping for my household, not planning for the "strewing" of learning activities for my kiddo, not engaging in household discussions with my husband, not working, not cooking, not cleaning...

I have a child that "senses" when I wake up. I am not kidding you. When I wake up, I sneak quietly to the bathroom so he can get the rest that I know he needs. I am shocked if I can only actually use the bathroom and manage to flush the toilet before I hear him stirring. Yes, I said, "Hear him stirring." I guess maybe it's not only the kid that does the "sensing". I guess we're kind of "in tune" to one another. Anyway, I digress.

The point is that my "me time" is not going to happen by my getting up early to make it happen. When we are both awake during the day, I'm busy with work, facilitating Jack's learning, housekeeping, spending some time with Dave, etc. Every now and then, I grab lunch with a friend when I'm between work appointments but honestly, I feel a little guilty. You can tell me that I shouldn't feel guilty but you can't make me not feel guilty.

I am not kidding you when I tell you I just have so much stuff that I need to do. As a nurse case manager, I am responsible for arranging care for a bunch of people. Since my child is home schooled, I am responsible for providing him with learning opportunities. Since I have been blessed with a lovely home, I am responsible for its upkeep. Since I am a wife, I am responsible for maintaining a relationship with my husband. Since I am a mother, I am responsible for the care and nurturing of a handful of a little boy. Since I have been blessed with a loving family, I am responsible for maintaining a connection with them.

But WAIT....isn't God supposed to be in charge of this show? Will God call me to something and not equip me for it?

Maybe this "me time" that I'm after needs to be time that I spend seeking the Lord and getting encouragement and refreshment from him.

I think I may have answered my own question.

What do you think?


Rachel said...

I am impressed that you can get by with so little "you" time. I have to have it or I kinda implode on myself. Me-time for me is blogging, and having a little time to get stuff done with all kids asleep. Thank goodness for naptime.

Marie said...

LOL, Rachel! I am amazed at all you get done. I should not say that I don't get "me time". I do get "me time". I just coordinate my activities with Dave and Jack around. I have gotten into a bad habit of staying up too late. I wrote the post when I was feeling a bit pressured (not by anyone in particular) that I should "get out" more. Honestly, I'm very happy with the way our life works. It's stressful at times but whose life isn't stressful at times?